The absolute highlight of my birthdays for the past say five years has to be ringing my Pastor and Rev Femi Albert Oduwole.
Rev typically would reach out to me on my birthday and he NEVER forgets even without Facebook reminders because his son is my birthday mate. Lol. But even before that phone call comes to me, I call him mehn!!! I need my Father’s blessing. And so as we spoke yesterday and I just updated him on my life and told him how the day went, he said ‘…oh yours is a life of impact and it should be celebrated…’
You see, the day I turned 30 was a DREAM!!! I especially recall how I felt last year on my 29th and just how absolutely SAD I was
Even though I shared my Birth story.
Actually, looking back now, I think I was a tad depressed. The previous day was my son’s dedication and I was happy and thankful about it
but I had and felt such a gloom around my life then. It was just looking somehow. And frankly, hindsight vision is perfect. Now that I look back, I feel like I am out of my skin and looking at the Eziaha then. Don’t get me wrong ooo, I wasn’t sitting and crying daily. I had my relationship with God going. I was just too anxious about my future and all I felt He was placing in my heart to do.
From where I was, it didn’t look good. Plus I was in Bonny Island and I won’t even lie, Bonny Island is really not my happy place.
So both physically and emotionally, I wasn’t in a very good place.
Just to give you an idea of how bad I felt, I quarrelled literally DAILY with my husband. I found fault with EVERYTHING!!! I didn’t appreciate NOTHING. He had tried to make me happy on that birthday but whosai… One day the dude just said ‘Eziaha you sound FRUSTRATED!!! You need to go and deal with what is disturbing you…’
And just to give you an even bigger idea, there was this day I got really violent with him. I FLUNG KingDaveed and I was going to BREAK everything in my home as I was hitting the dude. Mehn, that’s the day my respect for him peaked because he didn’t even strike back.
My man, a really REALLY GOOD MAN!!!
I didn’t believe what happened. I walked out of the home just to cool off and this was 11pm. Haha. The next day, I didn’t go to church. I couldn’t bring myself to. I felt soooooooooooo unsaved lol. I recall calling my best friend Valerie and bawling my eyes off asking her if she had ever seen any violent streaks in me before because she is the one bestie who has been with me the longest and most consistently.
Forget ooo, when you have real deep issues, it is only GOD that can heal you. No human, no matter how much they try can NEVER. I guess that was where my frustrations came from because I had placed such a heavy load on the guy and since he wasn’t meeting it, I became a wifezilla.
Anyways, trust Valerie, she tries her best to calm me down and stuff. And then somehow, I began to let God really work on me. I began to fully immerse in the season I was in (of motherhood and wifeyhood) and take my eyes off what others were up to in their lives. Then God began to really kinda give me roadmaps and peace and a clearer picture of the future and brought my teachers to me. One of whom is this crazy Chick Stephanie Obi.
She was one of my early callers this year on my birthday and as we spoke and i recounted how much had changed in 1year, I ALMOST started crying so I stopped talking to her. Lol
Basically she rang me a couple of weeks after my birthday last year and without knowing what was up in my life, she just telling me stuff she felt God would have me do with my life, and she was happy I had left the UN and that my life was worth much more and that my blog is such a platform that can give me a voice and blablabla.
I can recall exactly where I was and how rooted I was to the spot while she spoke. It felt like a rush of light hit me as she spoke. I felt something wake up in me. And what was funny was that she hadn’t spoken to me since I had my baby and after my birthday. I had just always missed her calls. That day for some reason, I picked and that day, LIGHT entered.
It began to all make sense. I truly did a 360 and just lived and OWNED my current season. Oh then I started literally sleeping in God’s presence. I recall that was the same season I got my present leather journal WHICH I ADORE
and I would write endlessly to God and just love on Him. I overdosed on YouTube videos from my Teachers and prayed like the my lifespan depended on how long I prayed.
It has been a LONG and SUPER EXCITING walk with God and I am thankful for me. Walking with God has not one dull moment.
Now, a year later, as I just stayed and enjoyed all the attention, I was just blown away. God is sooo good and so kind and so GRACIOUS!!! So gracious with us. I had the kind of day I wanted. I really soaked in the day and all the words.
I told my bestie Eniola that I will NOT miss ONE phonecall. I will HOG my phone. I will bask in every single word written or spoken about me and NOT feel guilty. And mehn, you guys were LAVISH!!!
I felt like God wanted me to truly BASK in it all. I didn’t know just how impactful it had been especially on Social media.
And what made me happy was just knowing that my heart was just pure and HOLY before God and even if I haven’t lived perfectly, I am doing this life well.
I have seen Him just really clean me from the very inside. I have had very regular open heart surgeries, amen!!! Days of ‘…NOOOOOOOOO God, don’t GO THERE…’
Phew!!! I have seen my faith grow steadily. I have a better understanding of the words I heard from PK one time
‘Two things have helped my life- MY ABILITY to hear from God and walking by Faith’.
I have heard Him CLEARLY in many areas of my life and for where things still seem unclear, I have FAITH that HE GOT ME!!!
I have seen myself LOOK TO JESUS ALONE and then WORK in my very many roles AS UNTO THE LORD and not man. I have seen Him REWARD and I have seen OBEDIENCE PROTECT.
I have seen Him honor my secret walk with and FOR HIM openly.
Tell you what guys, GOD IS REAL!!!
And the impact, which really pales in comparison to where He is taking me to, all comes as a result of my private fellowship with Him.
He has used Joyce MEYER to teach me about the teeny weeny details in my life. He has given me FIRE and PASSION with Christine Caine. He has given me a SUPER MENTOR in Pastor Mildred Okonkwo.
He has made me very aware of my ESSENCE and EMBRACE it fully with Lisa Bevere. Oh He personally sent me Priscilla as my BEST FRIEND (she has no idea how close we are). He has made me REAL with Heather Lindsey. He made sure DDK came into my life at just the perfect time to kinda show me a mirror and my goodness, HE made sure I have the BEST PASTOR in the whole world who will listen to EVERY FINE DETAIL of the funk and junk in my life and landscape me with His Love and Counsel. Rev Femi Oduwole.
Oh there are many more teachers in my life but don’t let me continue.
You people wey don reach 30 didn’t tell me ahead na. I would have fast forwarded this thing. Haha. You people not 30 yet think 20’s are something. Wait till you get here.
Something about 30 is freeing. Too old to care and just the right age to PUMP IT ALL UP!!!
Hey, not claiming lil’ Ms Perfect ooo. I’m just saying that it is absolutely INCREDIBLE what God will do with a life that just yields!!!
I hope I can share more subsequently especially in finer details of how He continues to walk with me but the meat of my gist today is FOLLOW GOD!!! He is the BEST SHEPHERD ever and He will NEVER lead us astray. Not promising a bump-free ride, but hey it will all be worth it. Those private moments where it is just between you and God and you give your best to life as you know to, they won’t go unrewarded.
Amen! Amen!! Amen!!!
Thank you guys for the kindest words. And the prayers.
I didn’t actually realise just how much yawl lean in mehn. I LOVED hearing the specifics of how I have affected your lives. I loved learning that I am a mentor, bestie, mama, accountability partner, sister, etc to a lot of you even without meeting you.
Made me laugh truly. Don’t worry, I also feel like Lisa Bevere is my blood mama too. I can’t wait to hug that woman!!! The funny thing is I just live my life in the BEST way I know to and then wham, it affects lives in good ways.
I intend to go HARDER mehn!!!
And one thing I learned from Joyce is this. She says she gets a ton of compliments literally daily so she treats each one as a rose and at the end of the day, she presents this huge beautiful bouquet to the Lord as a gift.
So Lord here is my BOUQUET!!!
Sha keep it in my mansion in heaven for me. Haha.
Ok enough of the serious stuff, HOW HOT ARE THESE PICTURES???
Loveeeeeet. That playsuit is totally not my style but I think God wanted me to get it because of how it came a day before the shoot. I had truly given up. Long story. And then the 30 balloons came literally an hour before.
I used to model so I had fun being the absolute centre of attention at that shoot. And I also recorded my first YouTube video. It was FUN to shoot. CoachE’ will be vlogging weekly on weight loss and then from time to time, FruitfullE’ I will share as God leads me.
Yeah, we have moved on from E’ to FruitfullE’.
I haven’t created the channel yet because I am trying to actually clear my plate, plus the video had some issues but hey, it will be up before the week is up. Amen!!!
I don’t even know where to ask you to check back for it. Oh ok, Twitter. @eziahaA
I have a clip on my IG sha. Eziaha…
I think I will prefer vlogging haha but I will do 10min or less videos. Max 15mins. But it will ROOOOOCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK like a badt band.
Ok so I announced two giveaways on my last post. The winner for Becoming 2.0 is Omowunmi Fatogun. Got quite a number of entries and I really wanted to pick someone who had already heard about the program and Funto and was actively believing God for it. Quite a number had heard but Fatogun’s mail kinda stood out. I have a tight second runner up so hey, if God is leading any of my readers to epp, holler and then I’ll share who. Tz just 10k jare. Btw, I’m believing God for miracles for those of you who mailed me. Praying God makes a way because I have a really good feeling about Becoming. Thanks Viyon for getting me a discount. Two discounts haha.
Ok and for the weightloss, Eby Akhigbe. I asked that people comment below and they were sending me emails. Simple instruction ooo. My email box is too busy so having more emails when I can avoid it can be annoying ooo. Phew!!!
That’s why I said drop a comment. Simples. Anyways, another friend wants to sponsor one more Chick. Just drop a comment as to why you. And of course, with CoachE’ you have to be serious ooo.
I don’t do too well with excuses. So bring your A-game especially if you are the one I pick. Meanwhile Fatogun and Eby, please email me today. Eziaha@eziaha.com for Fatogun and firstname.lastname@example.org for Eby.
Cheers yawl and just to sign out with this quote I picked from one of my July weight loss students,
A strong woman in her essence is a GIFT to the world…
Live Guys, as LAVISHLY as you know to!!!