The Lord has given me the tongue of the learned, a well taught tongue, so I know how to speak a WORD in season to the weary and encourage tired people…
At the beginning of the AMAZING month of June, I asked my Sugar Daddy for a Word… He gave me that.
Frankly, I was a tad surprised, but I knew it was God.
Recall my last post, A GREAT CLOUD OF WITNESSES, it was borne out of so many experiences and frankly I had found myself encouraging many so right early in the month, I understood why the Word.
Now something dampened my spirit some as the month progressed. I kept hearing this phrase ‘The Spirit of Discouragement’ and I had spent sometime praying as the Spirit directed me. My prayers were mostly for people and most of them I didn’t even tell. Writing about it was the next best thing for me and God reminded me of something that happened to me in Uni. I recalled and smiled and then this title came to mind.
Ok so as a student, I had a proxy Social media management job for just under two years in one of Naija’s top Pharmaceutical firms. I had done a temp job with this Company during one of the ASUU strikes and cos I was brilliant in that one month I spent with them, the DMD recommended me for the job and it paid a whooping 50k monthly, complete with a Laptop, BB, and internet allowance. Trust me, that money was a big deal to me as a student. But for some reason, my monthly pay was always delayed due to some Bank ish. And I realized that for every month my pay was delayed, my joy was delayed. I would be soooo touchy, so irritable, would not be able to pray, yes I would still make fellowship and all but within me, there would be a deep seated spirit of discouragement. Gosh, I would wake up and sleep with such thoughts. It affected EVERYTHING. Chai. I recall one day, I had just alighted from the campus shuttle at the gate, very sad and gloomy when I got an alert that my 50k had entered. Like magic, my mood immediately lifted. I became so happy and it looked like life came back to me. I could really go back home and pray like I used to. And then it hit me,
THE PRICE OF MY HAPPINESS/JOY was 50k.
I felt like such a rat. So that was ALL God was worth to me??? 50k. if I didn’t get that 50k and on time, I put Him in one corner somewhere and wore a long face and whined and whined UNTIL that money was sitting pretty in my Account. That day, I repented. That was WAY TOO MUCH POWER TO GIVE TO ANYTHING/ANYONE least of all unrighteous mammon. There should be only one thing in my life that should have that power and that is my God and my relationship with Him
…And He is before ALL things and by HIM all things consist… Col 1:17
Before you shake your head at me, please look inwards. Are you trusting God for any major testimony – A job, a baby, a husband, a car, a house?
Listen boo, if the absence of that thing has caused your spiritual life to wane, then baby, you are just a user and you are using God. It can’t end well. When you sleep or wake, that is the FIRST THING you think about and then that Spirit of discouragment takes the place of the SPIRIT OF WORSHIP that you should have just because that job has not come yet…
I am convinced that my God is looking for TRUE WORSHIPPERS!!! Children who would stay true to Him not just for what He does for us, but for who He is to us.
Men and women who like Job can say ‘Though He slay me, I would yet praise Him…’
Those that will praise Him in the storm while they await His rain of blessings.
Men like the three Hebrew men who say, I know my God will eventually come through for us, but even if He doesn’t, our faith in Him and our Love for Him will not be compromised even unto death’
Now do you think such an amazingly graciously good God would not honor such Faith and Love. That my darlings is TRUE LOVE.
If this God is willing to love us unconditionally, one would think we would reciprocate that LOVE, NO?
I recall something Pastor M shared with us back then titled WHAT TO DO WHILE WAITING which was a day set out for her to share her testimony. I am sure y’all know she had to wait 8long years for a child and battled PCOS which meant (according to medical science) you cannot have a child. The biggest lesson I got there and never forgot is found in the story of Hannah after she had prayed and Eli mistook her for being drunk…
1st Sam 1:18b
…So the women went her way and did eat and her countenance was NO MORE SAD…
So Hannah had had her crying days. Understandably so. But one day, she prayed, she cried and she poured out her heart to God and the Prophet Eli spoke a Word over her life and afterwards Hannah got up, wiped her face, and carried on with her life and was no longer depressed. The next verse we see her worshipping and the next verse we see her testimony. Her Samuel was born. He came after her countenance changed and the spirit of discouragement and depression was gone.
Can we emulate that today? I know that we all have needs per time. But while we are waiting for the manifestation, can we worship, as in live a lifestyle of worship while we wait? Can we be soooo full of Joy and frustrate the Devil while we wait?
Can we sow into our Father’s kingdom while we wait?
I loved one of the testimonies in the Akikitan brochure. One of the ladies mentioned how she sowed her time into washing cloths and bedsheets of DCC Children church as a seed into her trusting God for a child. While we are still trusting God for that dream job, can we throw ourselves into service in God’s house and even improve our personal relationship with God. Can we sit down with the Word and get a Word for that situation and then start rejoicing cos when you have a Word, you have a testimony ooo.
More than anything, can we judge this God faithful? Because He is faithful. No controversy whatsoever. Beyond what He does for us, can we just worship and Love on Him because of who HE IS !!!
Now I am sure many of us have had (or sadly have been) that one friend who only showed up when they had a need. I have had a couple. They remember me only when they have a need, whether financial or otherwise. Of course, as you can imagine, such relationship goes south fast. Very fast. Ain’t no way would anyone be interested in such a USER of a friend. Interestingly, I had a close friend who accused me of that once. She said I almost always only remembered her when I had a major issue that I needed someone to pray with me about and counsel me (That girl is on FIRE sha). I had to adjust cos that is not the way to build relationships.
I feel it is so unfair to treat anyone that way, least of all God. Haba!!! My peace and joy used to be so dependent on 50k pere. Today when I have needs and I realize that it is beginning to affect my mood and worship, ah, I adjust ooo. Nothing should have such power. So long as God has not come to tell you that He is now no longer God, then baby, rejoice. Your testimony is in your JOY not in the discouragement. That Spirit will sap strength out of you and I don’t know your chances of getting that testimony ooo. In fact, most likely, you would become desperate and begin to compromise your standards soon. Hian!!! Moreover, our God is a jealous God. He certainly doesn’t want to share that space in your life with anything or anyone.
One other thing PK says is that as we await our testimony, in addition to being joyful and getting a Word, sowing, etc, we should associate ourselves with positive faith-filled people and situations. Faith cometh by hearing And of course, doubt/fear/discouragement also comes by hearing. Turn of the TV and BBM if you have to. Cut off from some friends if you have to. Avoid some kind gatherings if you have to. But don’t leave that space empty, otherwise it will all come back, even fiercer. Fill it with faith-speaking friends and situations. Don’t now become a recluse and wallow in your own pity party.
I recall one day I whined and whined to my Pastor about someone and then he told me something I would NEVER forget. I actually felt God needed to give him a job so his life will be arranged lol. That way, He would serve God more, he would have money, etc. I just whined and whined. Lol. And trust Pastor B, he said God is not interested in giving him a job ooo, God is interested in HIS HEART more than anything else. Giving him the job is NOT the problem, it is building His character and FAITH. God ain’t looking to raise whimpy baby Christians who would refuse to serve Him until He has done something for them.
One last story before I wrap this up.
In one message PK preached titled BE PATIENT some 3/4years ago, He told us a story of this woman in church who gave birth and then the baby died. I don’t want to imagine just how painful that must have been. She had been a committed faithful worker in church when this happened. Oh it was bad. But this lady, she didn’t blink in her service. She still served, and in Children’s church too. Everytime you saw her, she was backing, carrying, feeding one baby or the other. My dear, if she even reduced her commitment, we would have understood abi? At all. She still served and worshipped. And before long, she took in again and my God blessed her with twins. Hehehehe. Boss-God. Now double blessing. While you have the time before the testimony lands, you better invest it wella ooo. One day, the job will come, the husband will come, the child will come (maybe triplets) and you wont get this time back.
But in the meantime, can He trust You not to be a USER?
God bless you darlings…